It’s such an odd feeling, losing someone you love so much. I’ve never had to deal with death before, my nan is the first person within my immediate family to die in my life time. The whole feeling is just surreal, that’s the only word I can think to describe it right now. They can’t phone about the funeral and all that until Monday, so not sure when the funeral will be. I keep debating whether I should say something at the funeral, I’m not sure really. I’ve just never dealt with all this before, it’s just odd, so very very odd.

I’m never going to see her again, it’s horrible.